After about seven days, the solemnity of Quinquagesima being over, when at the very beginning of night — that is, after the evening service1 — we had entered, held in suspense by our expectation of the promised discourse, the cell of the holy Theonas, the brisk old man, with a cheerful countenance, addressed us first in kindly speech: I was wondering, said he, that your most ardent zeal could put off for these seven days the settling of the question proposed, and had granted to its own debtor, who above all was not asking, a delay of so long a time.2 It is most just, therefore, that, since your kindness has of its own accord granted me so generous a truce,3 I too should make no delay in the repayment of the debt. For welcome is the putting out of this loan, which gains a greater increase in the paying of it, and not only enriches him who receives but also does not diminish him who gives.4 For the steward of spiritual things gathers a double gain, because he obtains the highest profits not only in the advance of him who hears but in his own discoursing as well,5 kindling himself no less to the desire of perfection while he instructs the hearer. Wherefore your ardour is my advance, your solicitude my compunction.6 For I too should certainly now be numb in mind, and should turn over nothing in my heart of the things you have sought after, unless your ardour and expectation were rousing me — asleep, in a manner of speaking — to the recollection of spiritual things.7 And so let the question be brought forward into the midst, if it seem good, whose settling we preferred the other day to put off, for the shortness of the time.
On Nocturnal Illusions.
Theonas on nocturnal illusions — the third silence.
Translated for study.xeb.ai · CC0 — Gibson did not translate this text
I. Of our return again to Abbot Theonas, and of his exhortation.
II. A recalling of our question, why a greater attack of the flesh sometimes follows upon a greater abstinence.
For your inquiry, unless I am mistaken, comprised this: why sometimes, indulging ourselves more freely, we are tickled with milder stings of this flesh,8 and sometimes, abstaining more strictly with a body afflicted and drained, we are pressed by sharper incitements, so that, as your confession disclosed, roused from sleep we find ourselves besprinkled with the emission of the natural humours.9
III. That the emission of the seminal flux comes about in a threefold manner.
Of this infestation, then, our predecessors have handed down a threefold cause, such as breaks in upon the measure of the appointed time with untimely excesses.10 For the flux is either heaped up by an excessive quantity of food, or it slips away through the mind's carelessness, or it is provoked by the snares of the mocking enemy.11 First, then, the fault of gluttony — that is, of voracity or of the gullet12 — thrusts out this overflow of the obscene humour. For even when it defiles the state of purity at a time of stricter abstinence, it is poured out not, as you suppose, from the present fasting, but from the excess of a past satiety. For what had been congealed in the marrow by the gorging of voracity must needs be discharged — through an itching, or at any rate unawares — out of a body wasted away by however great a fast.13 Wherefore not only must the daintier dishes be abstained from, but we must hold off from the commoner foods too with an equal abstinence;14 nay, satiety even of bread itself and of water is to be guarded against, that the purity of body we have gained may be able to abide long in us, and in some sort to imitate the undefiled chastity of the spirit — though we must needs confess that sometimes, even without any diligence of the mind, whether through the temperament of their bodies or through the ripeness of their age, some are more rarely sullied, or at any rate are not defiled by the emission of this flux.15 But he who wins his peace by an idle good fortune is of one desert, and he who earns a triumph by glorious virtues of another.16 For the power of the latter, which subdues all the faults, is worthy of wonder; the former, whom the necessity of the good keeps safe in his own sloth, I should call worthy rather of pity than of praise.17 The second cause of that impure flux is this: if the mind, emptied of spiritual studies and exercises and untrained in the disciplines of the inner man, has drawn over itself a certain mould of sloth by the habit of an unbroken torpor;18 or when, by not guarding against the trifles of filthy thoughts, it so slothfully desires that most sublime purity of heart as to believe that the whole sum of perfection and chastity consists in the chastisement of the outer man alone. And by the fault of this error and folly it will accordingly come about that not only does the manifold wandering of the thoughts break in upon the secret place of the mind shamelessly and impudently, but the seeds of all the former passions remain within it as well.19 And these, so long as they lie hidden in the mind's inmost recesses, disquiet the sleeper none the less with enticing phantasms, however rigid the fast with which the body is chastised;20 phantasms by which, before the course of the lawful time, obscene humours may be enticed forth, no longer out of nature's necessity but still out of the fraud of wickedness — humours which, if they cannot be checked altogether, are at least brought, by the help of God's grace, to that simple quality of emission, not so much by the emptiness of the flesh as by the watchfulness and strength of the mind.21 And therefore first of all the running to and fro of the senses must be curbed, lest the mind, used to these excesses, be dragged while it sleeps to the more shameful incitements of luxury.22 The third cause is when, through an ordered and careful discipline of abstinence indeed, we long to acquire by contrition of heart and body a perpetual purity of chastity, but, for all that we are taking excellent thought for the good of flesh and spirit, the spite of the most fraudulent enemy attacks us in this fashion: that, while he tries to cast down the confidence of our conscience and to humble us as though by some guilt, on those days above all on which we desire by a greater merit of integrity to please the divine sight,23 he may defile us — without any itching of the flesh at all, or any consent of the mind, and not through the illusion of any phantasm, but nevertheless by the simple emission of that flux — that he may frighten us away from the holy communion:24 although upon certain of the beginners, and of those whose bodies have not yet been made thin by a long chastisement of fastings, this illusion is believed to come about on this account by a devilish contrivance, that, when he has found them applying themselves to more intense fasts, he may overturn all their efforts by this device — that, while they perceive that by a stricter fast they have not only made no advance toward purity of body but have even been more grievously assailed, they may shudder at the strictness of abstinence, the mistress of incorruption and the nurse of purity, as at a rival.25 Wherefore we ought to know that we must be purged of each several fault not only because it takes possession of our sense with its own disturbances, but because it is not content to hold rule alone, without the fellowship of the rest, but, once the more dreadful college of all the faults has been let in, lays waste with a manifold captivity the mind that lies subject to it.26 And therefore gluttony must be overcome not for its own sake only — lest, that is, it corrupt us with a burdensome voracity — nor for this alone, that it may not set us on fire with the fire of carnal lust, but lest it make us the slaves of anger too, or of rage and dejection and all the other passions.27 For when food and drink are served to us either too little or too late or too carelessly, if we are weighed down by the dominion of the gullet, it follows that we are also stirred by the goads of anger. And again, we cannot be soothed by voluptuous flavours without the plague of covetousness, by whose superfluous preparations luxury takes its pleasure in great expenses.28 But covetousness, vainglory and pride and the multitude of all the faults are joined in an undivided fellowship; and so each single fault, if it has but begun to flourish in us, supplies increase to the rest as well.29
IIII. A question whether it is lawful for those defiled by a nocturnal illusion to approach the holy communion.
Germanus: By God's dispensation, we believe, has this question been brought forward into the midst, so that what we could never be taught — since modesty restrained our confidence to ask — we may now, called out by the opportunity of the conference and by the order of the matter itself, confidently make bold to ask about.30 If, then, at that time at which one ought to approach the holy mysteries, we perceive ourselves defiled by the illusion of a dream, is that holy partaking of the saving food to be ventured upon, or avoided?31
V. The answer, when the passion of a sleeper contracts guilt.
Theonas: With all diligence indeed, so far as in us lies, we ought to labour to hold the unspotted purity of chastity at that time above all in which we desire to stand at the venerable altars; and with the most watchful circumspection care must be taken beforehand lest the integrity of the flesh, kept through the time before, be defrauded on that night especially in which we are making ourselves ready for the communion of the saving banquet.32 But if that most wicked enemy, in order to withdraw from us the medicine of the heavenly remedy, has made sport of the guard of the sleeping mind33 — and that only in such wise that the sleeper is defiled by no blameworthy itching coming between, by no consent of delight, but the enemy has held out, as a hindrance to our sanctification, some emission forced by necessity in accordance with nature, or at any rate drawn out by the attack of the devil without any sense of pleasure34 — we can and we ought to come confidently to the grace of the saving food. But if, on the other hand, this congealed matter has been discharged by a fault of our own, confronting our conscience let us dread that word of the Apostle's: "Whosoever shall eat the bread and drink the cup of the Lord unworthily, shall be guilty of the body and blood of the Lord. But let a man prove himself, and so let him eat of that bread and drink of the cup."35 "For he that eateth and drinketh the bread and the cup of the Lord unworthily, eateth and drinketh judgment to himself, not discerning the body"36 — that is, in no way setting that heavenly food apart from the cheapness of common meats, nor discerning it to be such as none may venture upon save with a pure mind and flesh. Then he adds: "therefore among you many are weak and feeble, and many sleep"37 — saying, that is, that spiritual weakness and death are begotten chiefly of this presumption. For many who venture upon it by an unlawful usurpation are weak in faith and feeble in mind, wrapped, that is, in the languors of the passions; and they sleep the sleep of sin, rising in no wise from this deadly slumber by a saving solicitude.38 Then there follows: "But if we would judge ourselves, we should surely not be judged"39 — that is: if, as often as we are overtaken by the wound of sin, we judged ourselves unworthy of the receiving of the sacraments, we should certainly lay out our zeal to be able to come to it worthily through the amendment of repentance, and should not be chastised by the Lord, as unworthy, with the most severe scourges of infirmities — that so at least, being pricked, we may run back to the remedies of our wounds, lest, not being accounted worthy of the very brief chastening of the present age, we be condemned in the time to come together with the sinners of this world.40 And this is enjoined in Leviticus also with a plain declaration: "Every one that is clean shall eat flesh; and whatsoever soul, in whom there is uncleanness, shall eat of the flesh of the sacrifice of salvation which is the Lord's, shall perish before the Lord."41 In Deuteronomy too the unclean man is in like manner mystically separated from the spiritual camp: "If any," he says, "man among you hath been defiled by a dream in the night, he shall go forth out of the camp, and shall not return before he shall be washed with water toward evening: and after the going down of the sun he shall return into the camp."42
VI. That sometimes this illusion comes about by the contrivance of the enemy also.
But that it may be more plainly proved that this impurity is sometimes drawn out by the contrivance of the enemy also: we know a brother who, though he possessed unbrokenly a chastity of heart and body earned by the utmost circumspection and humility, and was in no wise tempted by nocturnal mockeries, yet, as often as he had made himself ready to receive the Lord's communion, was befouled in his sleep by an unclean flux.43 And when for a long time he had kept himself trembling from the holy mysteries, he brought this question at last to the Elders, trusting that he would obtain a remedy for his attacks and for his grief by their healing counsel.44 But when the teaching of the spiritual physicians was sifting the first cause of this disease — the cause which is wont to come down from an abundant taking of food45 — and they found that this was not in the said brother, and it was plain that this illusion was in no way arising from the fault of satiety, because neither the brother's well-known strictness nor the peculiar exception of the solemn days on which that pollution kept befalling him would let them think so, they carried the search of their inquiry over at once to the second cause of this sickness, sifting whether perhaps it was by a blame of the soul that the flesh, drained by fasting, was being pressed with impure illusions — the illusions by which even the strictest men are defiled, through the fault of pride, when they have been a little puffed up about the purity of their body — namely, because they have believed that they obtained by human strength the chief gift of God, that is, the chastity of the body.46 Being asked, therefore, whether by his own diligence he believed himself so capable of this virtue that he had no need of the succour of divine help, the brother abhorred that impious thought with the utmost execration, and humbly declared that not even on the other days could he have kept the purity of his body had he not been helped in all things by divine grace; whereupon the Elders ran back at once to the third cause and saw through the hidden snares of the devil's contrivance.47 And having proved that the blame lay neither with the soul nor with the flesh, they most confidently judged that he ought to be joined to the holy feasts — lest, that is, if he persisted in this obstinacy, he should be bound by the crafty nooses of the malignant enemy and be unable to be a partaker of the sanctification and of the body of Christ, and by this fraud should be defrauded for ever of the medicine of the saving remedy.48 And when this was done, the whole stage-play of the devil's contrivance was so uncovered that presently, with the power of the Lord's body protecting, that habit of the past illusion ceased.49 In which the enemy's guile plainly appeared, and at the same time the judgment of the Elders was both set forth and proved — the judgment which taught that this most impure flux is for the most part driven on not by a fault of the flesh nor of the soul, but by the factious mockery of the adversary.50 In order, then, that the deceitful imagination of dreams, that enticer to impure emission, may be unknown either for ever or at any rate — to speak according to the humbler or common condition — for certain months, after that faith by which it behoves us to hope continually for the gift of purity especially from the grace of God, the excess of food and drink must be chastised.51 For by the overflow of these it must needs be that humours of this kind are more readily begotten; and since, once congealed, they cannot but be discharged and driven out by the law of nature itself, they come forth upon the occasion of any itching or illusion whatever. But when the fullness of food is taken away, it follows that those unclean emissions too are more slowly bred. And so it comes about that, as their flux is, so also the illusion disquiets sleepers either more rarely or more faintly — because the emission does not so much come down from the imagination as the imagination from an excess of emission.52 Wherefore, if we would be set free from the enticements of these illusions, we must strive with all our strength:53 first, that when the passion of fornication has been overcome, according to the blessed Apostle "sin may not reign in our mortal body, to obey the lusts thereof";54 secondly also, that when that enticing motion of the body has been utterly stilled and lulled to sleep, we may "in no wise yield our members as weapons of iniquity unto sin"; thirdly, that when our inner man also has been mortified in every way and to the marrow from that titillation of wantonness, we may "yield ourselves unto God, as those that are alive from the dead" — and so, coming by this advance to the perpetual quiet of our body, may yield also "our members as weapons", now not of wantonness, but "of righteousness unto God."55 And over us, grounded in this purity of chastity, "sin shall not have dominion."56 For we are not "under the law", which, while it commends the lawful rights of marriage, nourishes also and keeps in our marrow that heat by whose ministry the work of unlawful fornication is accomplished; but "under grace", which, while it instils the incorruption of virginity, kills even that harmless and simple motion of the body, and even the pleasure of lawful intercourse itself.57 And so, when all the humours of that most impure filth have been dried up, being made those excellent and praiseworthy eunuchs who are proclaimed through Isaiah, we shall deserve to possess that blessedness which is promised them: for "thus saith the Lord unto the eunuchs: They that shall keep My sabbaths, and shall choose the things that I have willed, and shall hold My covenant: I will give them in My house and within My walls a place, and a name better than to sons and daughters: I will give them an everlasting name, which shall not perish."58 Who are these sons and daughters, to whom these eunuchs are so far preferred that they are said to be about to receive even a place and a name that is better, but those holy men who, abiding under the old testament in the bond of marriage, came not undeservedly, by the keeping of the commandments, into the adoption of the sons of God?59 And what is that name which is promised them as something chief in the stead of the highest reward, but this — that we are said to be reckoned by the name of Christ? Of this name too the same prophet in another place also: "and His servants," he says, "He shall call by another name. In which he that is blessed upon the earth shall be blessed in the God Amen: and he that sweareth in the earth shall swear in the God Amen";60 and again: "and there shall be called," he says, "to thee a new name, which the mouth of the Lord shall name."61 And these, for this purity of heart and of body, shall enjoy that chief and singular blessedness also, that they may sing continually that song which no other of the saints can sing but these alone, who follow the Lamb whithersoever He goeth: "for they are virgins, and have not defiled themselves with women."62 Therefore, if we would come to this most sublime glory of the virgins, let us with all our strength cultivate the incorruption of mind and of spirit, lest we fall into the number of those unwise virgins to whom their virginity was for this cause not reckoned: that they kept themselves free from carnal intercourse alone, and are on this account called virgins indeed, but foolish — because, when the oil of inward purity fails in their vessels, the brightness and splendour of bodily virginity is put out.63 For by the cherishing and nourishment of inward purity must chastity be supplied to the outer man as well, and be quickened continually toward a perseverance in perpetual incorruption. And therefore the foolish, though virgins, do not deserve to enter the glorious bride-chamber of the bridegroom with those wise ones, who kept their whole spirit and soul and body without blame in the day of our Lord Jesus Christ.64 For those are the true and uncorrupted virgins of Christ, those are reckoned the admirable and excellent eunuchs — not they who are afraid, and to whom it is not pleasing to commit fornication, nor they who hold back the reins of unchastity, but they who have conquered even the least titillation of the mind and the slightest incitements of wantonness, and have so far worn down that sense of the flesh, so to speak, that they are touched not only by no delight at its commotion, but not even by the smallest titillation.65
VII. That no one ought ever to judge himself worthy of the Lord's communion.
But we ought to fence our heart round with so great a watchfulness of humility that we hold this determination with a perpetual stability of the senses — that we can by no means come to so great a merit of purification — and that, although we have done through the grace of God all these things which I have said above, we may nevertheless believe ourselves unworthy of the communion of the sacred body:66 first, because so great is the majesty of that heavenly manna that no one compassed about with this flesh of clay receives it for food by his own desert and not out of the free bounty of the Lord; secondly, because no one can be so circumspect in the conflict of this world but that at least rare or slight darts of sins strike him — since it is impossible that a man should not sin either by ignorance, or by negligence, or by surprise, or by thought, or by necessity, or by forgetfulness, or in sleep.67 For even though a man have climbed so glorious a summit of virtues that he cries out, not in boasting, that saying of the Apostle's68: "But to me it is a very small thing that I should be judged of you, or of man's day: but neither do I judge my own self: for I know nothing against myself"69 — yet let him know that he cannot be without sin. For not in vain did the same teacher add: "but I am not justified in this"70 — that is: it is not so, that if I for my part have believed myself to be righteous I shall straightway possess the true glory of righteousness; nor, because my conscience pricks me with reproach for no sin, am I therefore unstained by the contagion of any foulness.71 For many things lie hidden even from my own conscience, which, though they are unknown or obscure to me, are known and manifest to God. And therefore he adds and says: "but he that judgeth me is the Lord"72 — that is, by Him alone, from whom the secrets of hearts are not hidden, is the trial of a true judgment pronounced upon me.73
VIII. An objection, on the ground that all must be deprived of the Lord's communion if no one is without sin.
Germanus: Above it was said that none but the holy ought to be partakers of the heavenly sacraments; now it is added that it is impossible for a man to be wholly free from offence. If, then, no one is free from guilt, no one is holy; if no one is holy, it follows that a man who lacks holiness cannot be a partaker of the mysteries of Christ, and moreover ought not to hope for the kingdom of heaven, which the Lord promises to the holy alone.74
VIIII. The answer, that many may be holy, but no one without sin save Christ.
Theonas: That many are holy and righteous we cannot indeed deny; but between the holy and the spotless there is a great distance. For it is one thing that a man should be holy — that is, consecrated to the divine worship: for this name, as the scripture bears witness, is common not to men only, but to places also, and to the vessels of the temple, and to cauldrons.75 But it is another thing to be without sin, which belongs in a singular way to the majesty of our Lord Jesus Christ alone; of whom the Apostle also declares, as something chief and peculiar, saying: "who did no sin."76 For he assigned to Him, as though it were something incomparable and divine, a cheap enough praise, and unworthy of what is proclaimed of Him, if we too can pass a life untouched by all sin.77 Again the Apostle to the Hebrews: "For we have not," he says, "a high priest who cannot suffer with our infirmities, but tempted in all points according to likeness, without sin."78 If, then, this fellowship can exist between our earthly lowliness and that lofty and divine high priest — that we too should be tempted without any offence of sin — why did the Apostle, looking up to this in Him as something unique and singular, mark off His merit from all men by so great a division?79 By this exception alone, then, is He distinguished from us all: that we, it is agreed, were tempted not without sin, He without sin.80 For what man is there, however brave and warlike he be, who is not yet for the most part open to hostile darts? Who is there that, as though compassed about with impenetrable flesh, would mingle in so great perils of battles without peril? But He alone, "beautiful in form beyond the sons of men,"81 taking upon Him the condition of human death together with the whole frailty of the flesh, was never stained by the touch of any foulness.82
X. That the Son of God alone overcame the tempter without any wound of sin.
For He was tempted after our likeness, first by the fault of gluttony, so that that crafty serpent tried to make sport of Him in His hunger, by the desire of food, in the same order in which he had before seduced Adam: "If Thou be the Son," saying, "of God, bid that these stones be made bread."83 But receiving no sin from this temptation, though an undoubted means lay ready to His hand, He rejected the food which the contriver of deceits was thrusting upon Him, saying: "Man liveth not by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God."84 He was tempted also with vainglory after our likeness, when it was said to Him: "If Thou be the Son of God, cast Thyself down."85 But He was not caught by the sly suggestion of the devil, and, confuting a most empty seducer by the objection of the scriptures as well: "Thou shalt not tempt," He says, "the Lord thy God."86 He was tempted also with the swelling of pride after our likeness, when all the kingdoms of the world and the glory of them were promised Him by the devil; but the emptiness of the tempter was laughed at and rebuked.87 For He answered him: "Get thee back, Satan: it is written, Thou shalt worship the Lord thy God, and Him only shalt thou serve."88 And by these testimonies we are taught that we too ought in like manner to withstand the fraudulent suggestions of the enemy by the remembrance of the scriptures.89 Again He was tempted with pride after our likeness, so that the same contriver of snares strove to thrust upon Him through men the kingdom which, offered by him before, He had refused. But without sin He laughed at the snares of the tempter: "for when Jesus knew that they would come to take Him by force and make Him a king, He fled again into the mountain Himself alone."90 He was tempted after our likeness when He was beaten with scourges, when He was struck with buffets, when He was besprinkled with the horror of spittle, when at the last He endured the exquisite torments of the cross.91 But by no insults — I will not say ever — nay, not even by torments, was He driven to the swelling of even the lightest indignation; who, set upon the gibbet, cried out mercifully: "Father, forgive them: for they know not what they do."92
XI. That Christ alone came in the likeness of the flesh of sin.
But how shall that also be taken, that the Apostle records that He came in the likeness of the flesh of sin, if we too can have flesh that the stain of no sin has defiled?93 For this also is recorded of Him who alone is without sin, as something singular: "God sent His own Son in the likeness of the flesh of sin"94 — because, taking a true and entire substance of human flesh, He is to be believed to have taken not sin itself in it, but the likeness of sin. For the likeness is to be referred not to the truth of the flesh — after the perverse understanding of certain heretics — but to the image of sin. For in Him there was true flesh indeed, but without sin: like, that is, to sinful flesh. Since indeed the one belongs to the truth of the human substance, but the other is referred to faults and to manners.95 He had the likeness of the flesh of sin when, as though a man ignorant and anxious for food, He inquired: "How many loaves have ye?"96 But just as His flesh was in no wise subject to sin, so neither was His soul subject to ignorance. And indeed the evangelist at once adds: "But Jesus said this, tempting them: but He Himself knew what He would do."97 He had flesh like to sinful flesh when, as though thirsting, He asked drink of the Samaritan woman. But that flesh was not defiled with the foulness of sin, since on the contrary the woman was provoked to ask for living water, which would never suffer her to thirst, but would become in her a fountain of water springing up into everlasting life.98 He had the truth of this flesh when He slept in the ship. But lest those sailing with Him should be deceived by the likeness of sin, "He arose and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great calm."99 By a lot shared with all men He seemed subject to sin, when it was said of Him: "This man, if he were a prophet, would surely know who and what manner of woman hath touched His feet."100 But He had not the truth of sin, since, reproving the blasphemous thought of the Pharisee, He at once forgave the woman's sins. He was thought to bear sinful flesh with the rest when, as though a man set in the peril of death and stricken with the terror of impending torments, He prayed: "Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from Me,"101 and: "My soul is sorrowful even unto death."102 But that sorrow knew no contagion of sin, since the author of life could not dread death. For He says: "No man taketh My soul from Me, but I lay it down of Myself: I have power to lay it down, and I have power to take it again."103
XII. That all the righteous and holy have been not in the likeness, but in the truth of sin.
In this, then, is that man who was born of a virgin parted by a great distance from all who are brought forth by the mingling of the two sexes: that, whereas all we bear in the flesh not the likeness but the truth of sin, He took upon Him, in the assumption of true flesh, not the truth but the likeness of sin.104105 And indeed, although the Pharisees remembered most plainly what was written of Him in the prophet Isaiah — "who did no sin, neither was guile found in His mouth"106 — yet they were so deceived by the likeness of the flesh of sin that they said: "Behold a man gluttonous, and a winebibber, a friend of publicans and sinners";107 and to that blind man who had been given light: "Give glory to God: for we know that this man is a sinner";108 and to Pilate: "If this man were not a sinner, we would not have delivered Him up unto thee."109 Whosoever, then, shall have dared to profess himself to be without sin will claim for himself, by the crime of a blasphemous pride, an equality in this thing, which is singular and proper to Him alone. For it follows that he says he has the likeness of the flesh of sin, and not the truth of sin.110
XIII. That the sins of the saints are not so grievous as to take from them the merit of holiness.
But that righteous and holy men are not free from blame the scripture plainly declares, saying: "For seven times doth the righteous man fall, and rise again."111 For what else is it to fall than to sin? And yet, though he is said to fall seven times, he is none the less pronounced righteous; nor does the lapse of human frailty prejudice his righteousness, since there is a great difference between the fall of a holy and of a sinful man.112 For it is one thing to commit a mortal sin, and another to be forestalled by a thought which is not free from sin; or to offend by the error of ignorance, or of forgetfulness, or by the glibness of idle speech; or for a moment, by the fault of unbelief, to waver a little in inward contemplation; or to be assailed by some subtle titillation of vainglory; or by the necessity of nature to fall back for a while from the highest perfection.113 For these are the seven kinds of lapse in which, though a holy man sometimes falls, yet he does not cease to be righteous; and although they seem light and small, they nevertheless make it impossible for him to be without sin. For he has things for which, bearing a daily repentance, he ought both truly to ask pardon and to pray without ceasing for his own sins, saying: "Forgive us our debts."114 And that we may prove by the plainest examples both that some of the saints have erred and that they have yet not departed from their own righteousness — surely that most blessed Peter, and pre-eminent among the Apostles, what else is he to be believed to have been but holy, and above all at that time in which it was said to him by the Lord: "Blessed art thou, Simon Bar-Jona: for flesh and blood hath not revealed it unto thee, but My Father which is in heaven. And I will give unto thee the keys of the kingdom of heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt bind upon earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt loose upon earth shall be loosed also in heaven"?115 What can be more glorious than this praise from the Lord, what more sublime than this power and blessedness? And yet a little after, when, not knowing the mystery of the Passion, he unwittingly set himself against so great a benefit to the human race, saying: "Be it far from Thee, Lord: this shall not be unto Thee,"116 he deserves to hear: "Get thee behind Me, Satan: thou art an offence unto Me: for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but those that be of men."117 Can it be that, when equity itself rebuked him with these words, he is to be believed either not to have fallen at all, or not to have remained in holiness and righteousness?118 What of that time also — surely he is not to be denied to have plainly suffered a downfall, when, with the fear of the persecutors pressing upon him, he was compelled to deny the Lord three times? But at once, repentance following, by washing away the stain of so great a crime with the bitterest tears, he did not lose the merits of holiness and righteousness. Of him, therefore, and of the saints like him, we ought to take that also which is sung through David: "The steps of a man are directed by the Lord: and He shall will his way exceedingly. When the righteous man shall fall, he shall not be troubled: for the Lord putteth His hand under him."119 For he whose steps are directed by the Lord, what else can he be but righteous? And yet of this very man it is said: "When he shall fall, he shall not be dashed to pieces."120 What is "when he shall fall," but "when he shall have run into the lapse of some sin"? "He shall not be dashed to pieces," he says — that is, he shall in no wise be long overwhelmed by the inroad of sin; but although for the present he seem to be dashed down, yet, raised up by the divine help which he implores, by a swift rising again he shall not lose the steadfastness of righteousness, or, even if for the present he shall have lost it through the frailty of the flesh, he shall repair it by the putting under of the Lord's hand.121 For he does not cease to be holy after his downfall, who, since he knows that he cannot be justified by confidence in his own works, and believes that he is to be delivered from bonds of sins so great by the grace of the Lord alone, ceases not to cry out with the Apostle: "Wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? The grace of God through Jesus Christ our Lord."122
XIIII. How that saying of the Apostle is to be understood: "For I do not the good that I would."
For when the Apostle Paul, knowing that the inestimable abyss of purity cannot be penetrated by man while the tides of thought resist, had first, long tossed as it were through the deeps, said: "For I do not the good that I would, but the evil which I hate, that I do,"123 and again: "But if I do that which I would not, it is no more I that work it, but the sin that dwelleth in me,"124 and: "I delight in the law of God after the inner man, but I see another law in my members fighting against the law of my mind, and leading me captive in the law of sin which is in my members"125 — then, the frailty whether of his own or of nature itself having been wholly seen through, utterly terrified by the vastness of so measureless a depth, he fled for refuge to the safest harbour of the divine help; and, despairing as it were of the burdens of mortality of his own ship, weighed down by natural infirmity, he prays for the remedies for shipwrecks from Him to whom nothing is impossible,126 crying out with a certain piteous wailing: "Wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death?"127 And at once the release which he despaired of from the weakness of nature he confidently presumed from the goodness of God, adding: "The grace of God through Jesus Christ our Lord."128
XV. An objection, on the ground that the Apostle is to be believed to have said this rather in the person of sinners.
Germanus: Many lay it down that this passage of the Apostle ought to be so understood as to maintain that he said it not in his own person but in the person of those who sin — of those, that is, who, wishing to hold themselves back from bodily enticements and pleasures, bound fast by former faults and made captive by the delight of carnal passions, cannot restrain themselves, so long as, weighed down by an ingrained habit of vices as by a certain harsh lordship of tyranny, they cannot draw breath again toward the liberty of chastity.129 For how will that which he says be able to fit the blessed Apostle — who, it is certain, had attained to the highest summit of all perfection —: "For I do not the good that I would, but the evil which I hate, that I do";130 that also which he adds: "But if I do that which I would not, it is no more I that work it, but the sin that dwelleth in me";131 nor yet this besides: "For I delight in the law of God after the inner man, but I see another law in my members fighting against the law of my mind, and leading me captive in the law of sin which is in my members"?132 In what way, then, can these things be fitted to the person of the Apostle? For what good is there that that man could not fulfil? And on the contrary, what is that evil which, unwilling and hating it, he could yet have committed against his will, nature compelling? But to what law of sin, then, could the chosen vessel, in whom Christ the Lord was speaking, be led away captive?133 He who, when he had taken captive every disobedience and "every high thing that exalteth itself against God,"134 proclaimed concerning himself with confidence: "I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith: henceforth there is laid up for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall render to me in that day."135
XVI. Of the postponement of the question proposed.
Theonas: As I am entering the safest harbour of silence, you are trying to call me back again to the measureless open sea of a most profound question.136 But, having embraced the opportunity of a trusty roadstead, here for the present, the course of so long a conference having been run, we will cast the anchor of keeping silence, so that tomorrow, if however no force of tempest stand in the way, we may spread the sails of discourse once the blowing of a favouring wind has been tried.137